Afterthoughts

They are what do me in.

I stay up late reading my thoughts.

Replaying the moments of the day

Like a movie on the big screen.

I ask myself…

Why did you do that?

Did you really just say that?

Maybe you should have done this instead

God that was stuPIDWHYDIDIDOTHAT

But

I could do this next time...

It would actually be really cool if I did this.

Should I do this?

How would I even do that.

Stuck on replay,

Overthinking often.

Inability to change past actions.

Note to self:

Make changes moving forward.

Think internally. Act externally.

Don't get stuck in quiet contemplation

Rumination disrupts my concentration

Outwardly dreaming

Pushing myself to learn and improve.

Change and growth.

Afterthoughts help me process.

But after thoughts,

What comes next?

Welcome to my internal monologue.